from out a quite horrible grip of a thing to this other nearly boring place, it was all weird and felt a bit terrible actually, and im not entirely sure why, perhaps, more importantly, how...this came into being but whatever, it did. and now i must learn how to cope with these infuriating problems that, and im embarrased to say, are only in the small form of a black winged insect. i try, i do, i swear i make a considerable effort with it but...somehow it eludes me. but, and i say that alot, theres always a decent enough excuse to save my reputation with my friends. im rarely judged, not to my knowledge, and seem to float on by fare-ly-well. despite, even, the loud noise keeping me awake, and the some would say deluded wants from life. oh well...ive got to have some faith that everything is in its right place, the world is still turning on the same axis belonging to the system out there, and, faith in the fact that i will never completely understand, or, aspire to the mark ive given myself. im pretty much done i think.
